Some of you may know that I have ME. I don't think I've ever written about it on my blog because I try to keep this as my little happy place (apart from when I blogged about the burglary). I had been on the waiting list to see a specialist for a year and a half and finally saw a specialist last week. At last I am getting help.
Until today I didn't know much about Frida Khalo. I knew that she was an artist with a massive mono-brow! Aside from that, I didn't know much (I didn't watch the film in 2002. Maybe I will). Today, I saw a little YouTube video about Frida Khalo. I discovered that she was bed-bound and actually painted in bed! This really inspired me.
I don't rest as much as I should. When I have energy, I use it. I clean the kitchen, I clean the bathroom, I spend hours in the studio painting. Then I can't do a thing for days. I get frustrated. I want to do things but I either shouldn't or I physically cannot. Art helps me. These past couple of weeks, Hubby has been encouraging me to leave the dishes and do some painting. I feel as though I have really achieved something when I paint and draw and make things. If I clean the kitchen, then I have a clean kitchen for about an hour. Then it needs to be cleaned again. If I create, I have something to show for my tiredness. I can think, "yes, I'm tired, but look what I've done", and that makes me smile.
I don't get as much rest as I should. I sleep lots, but I don't actually rest much. And I am now being discouraged to sleep during the day but to rest instead. Rest for a 'normal' person might be reading or watching television. But that is actually really tiring for someone with ME. As Action For ME say:
For your mind and body to get real benefit you need to be fully relaxed and properly resting your brain. This may call for a new perspective on what you consider to be relaxation. Before you became ill you might have used mental activities to relax, like reading or watching television, or you might have enjoyed physical exercise. For healing rest, aim to be quiet and still, both physically and mentally.
I get bored of sitting or lying in bed if I'm not allowed to sleep. Now, inspired by Frida Kahlo, I plan to draw while in bed.
So, if you start seeing lots of drawings of my bedroom on my Flickr page, you'll know why!
It wasn't until today on seeing our big pink oval polka dot serving plate next to my pink polka dot tea-towel that I realised that I must quite like pink polka dots. Then I saw my pink polka dot utensils tin. And my pink polka dot mug. And my pink polka dot apron.
This was my Christmas present from my in-laws: a moleskine! I've wanted one for ages and I finally have one. I didn't use it immediately as I didn't want to ruin it. I have so many beautiful sketchbooks (not many that I can actually paint in though) and I'm the same with all of them - I don't do anything in them for fear of ruining them. THIS MUST STOP! If we forever save things for something perfect, we'll never use them! So, I have been getting out those beautiful sketchbooks and using them. I feel like I'm breaking the rules. Like going to the supermarket in your wedding dress (I've actually done that!). So here's my beautiful moleskine. Over the next few weeks and months it will look very different.
My first page spread. The beginning.
Second page spread. Time to have some fun!
Third page spread. As you can see, I've only done the foundation. Not sure where I'll go with this page.
Check this out. It's a video interview with a favourite artist of mine called Dan Price. His drawings are so child-like: a quality I've been aiming at recently. I used to love making little dens as a child. Sometimes the dens would be indoors under a sheet which was draped over some chairs. Another time, my dad let me dig a hole in the garden and I stuck a big stick in the ground and draped a sheet over that. It was like a very earthy tent. Dan Price's den is much much cooler though. Worth watching the vid just for that! Go on, have a look.
I've finally finished it! The day I got it, I thought I would have finished it in a single weekend because I just couldn't stop playing in it. But a couple of months later, and here are the last pages. If there are any pictures of pages I haven't posted, let me know and I'll get on the case.
"Make prints using an ink pad and vegetables".
Okay so I didn't actually use an ink pad - I used paint instead. When was the last time you did some vegetable prints? I don't think I've done it since I was a child! So much fun though. I really like the hearts. But I love hearts anyway.
"Place sticky things here. (honey, gum, syrup, glue, sucker, marshmallow)"
I put glue on the page. The one below is glue-gun glue.
This one is PVA glue (cheap school glue).
"Draw lines using abnormal writing utensils dipped in ink or paint. (Sticks, spoons, twist ties, comb, etc.)"
I used a hair-pin, a comb, a lid, a toothbrush and a nail. After having made circles, I decided to edit the instructions so that it read, "draw using abnormal writing utensils", instead of "draw lines"!
"Throw something. A pencil, a ball dipped in paint."
"Wrap something with this page"
All done! Now I really want to see what other people did with theirs.
We've had my parents staying with us the last few days (hence the lack of blogging), which has been simply lovely. On Friday we went for a wander around the posh bits of the city. Below is a picture of one of the arcades with a LOVELY little shop selling vintage housey things, along with the odd handmade piece. Fortunately, it was closed ("back in 5 mins" sign on the door), so I wasn't able to spend any of my non-existent money.
I love how the bunnies are all leaning back, as if on a rollercoaster. So cute.
Aren't they cute?!
My blog has been severely lacking in art these past weeks. I plan to put this right THIS WEEK! I said a couple of weeks ago that I would finish wrecking my journal in a couple of days. What a big liar I am! I really will finish it this week though. I'm pretty sure all three of my readers have a Wreck This Journal now so I am checking your blogs to see what you've done to it so far.
When Hubby offered to make me a hot chocolate, I was just expecting a hot chocolate. However, this is what I received:
Hot chocolate with a shot of creme brulee syrup (from Starbucks) with a layer of marshmallows, followed by a layer of vanilla ice-cream, followed by a layer of whipped cream, sprinkled with hundreds and thousands, followed by a crumbled Mint Aero bar, topped with some Jelly Tots arranged in a heart formation.